this week was hell getting through, but im glad its over.
i got the new annie lennox and the new matchbox 20..both super amazing. and im completely in love with both…especially annie lennox’s song, “sing” about aids in women and children in south africa. its so epic to me. and shes got so many strong women singers on this track, and its just..epic. check it out please. if you care about me at all..go check this song out. it will change you.
my last day at barnes and nobles was..yesterday. and im so happy im done there. there was a bit of nostalgia today, but its over now. my last day was fun. i sampled stuff i wanted to try for a while, and i handed out free samples to customers.
then after, i went to harrisburg to see dennis and his mom cause it was her birthday..so i drank..a lot. and it was fun.
today, denny and i made cookies and just hung around the house enjoying eachothers company. i have never been so happy and laughed so much in such a long time. i love him so much. he is so good to me.
this afternoon after i left his house was kind of irritating cause i hate lancaster more than anything in the world. and anyway.
i was on myspace today checking out something, and i saw on a bulletin of a friend, “i have come to realize that i lost…a good friend who can contact me when she is ready” and i dont want to be self centered, and think its about me, cause it might not be, but if it is..and that person is reading this…my response to you is…
please dont give up on our friendship. i havent, i just need time to figure my faith out and when i talk to you, i feel like i am being pushed. every conversation i have with you ends with us fighting about my faith, and i hate it. everyone in the world is pushing me to chose, and sometimes i just want a friend. thats it. i dont care what your beliefs are or anything, just as long as you care about me and you let me care about you. and that you accept me for what i am and what i chose to do, and let me do the same for you.
i believe we will be okay in time, i just need you to stop pressuring me and let me be who i feel in my heart is right. i will be more…proper… if it helps.
thats pretty much it right now.. my lifes pretty boring..